last night, i had my first wedding nightmare. can you believe that?! i have less than 4 months to go, and yet i'm having nightmares already.
it was such a weird dream! schmuck and i got married na daw, but everything was happening so fast and i was late or something. basta everything was so rushed that i didn't even get to march down the aisle. i was just brought to the altar, and then when i got there, i didn't even have my veil on, so i just put it on my head rather haphazardly. then our wedding rings weren't blessed daw, and schmuck even sneaked his way into putting the ring on my finger without the priest seeing what he was doing.
fucking weird! when i woke up, i had to think hard pa whether i was really married na or not. i even had to look at my hand to see if i had a wedding ring on. nyahaha!
i have intermittent bouts of panic now. yeah, yeah! i know that i still have enough time. believe me, i tell myself that several times in a day. it's not like i'm getting cold feet or anything. i'm just....panicking. who knows why! i'm just naturally strange, so that should be reason enough. i know i'm being silly, but ever since we stepped onto 2005, my heart starts beating really fast whenever i think of the wedding. it doesn't help that practically every person i run into at the office tells me that my wedding's near na or that i only have 4 months left or that it's the big year, etc etc.
holy crap.
it's been a rough 3 days since i totally quit my coffee and ciggies. it's harder than i thought. the stress level at the office is pretty high right now since audit is coming up, and it's really not the right time to quit. what was i thinking?!?!
oh. now i remember. our future kids.
gedemit.
on a lighter note, i had lunch with mike and some other guys from the office last sunday. it was such a joy to see mike again! although he gained a teeny bit of weight (hehehe), he was still the same ol' mike.
we met at italianni's in greenbelt, and i even got lost for a while. bwahaha! how pathetic can i be?! i mean, i don't go to makati anymore. traffic sucks! and besides, with alabang town center so near, i don't really need to go to makati unless absolutely necessary.
when i finally found greenbelt (ok, i admit it...i called a friend for directions), only sheila and her hubby jeff were there. then tin s followed soon after, then imelda and her hubby jon. too bad that schmuck couldn't make it since he had to be at work. then mike finally arrived, and there was a whole lotta hugging and kissing. vince and his wife tina followed a little later, and the kwentos just started pouring over focaccia bread dipped in olive oil and balsamic vinegar. yum!!!
lunch was such fun, as mike shared stories about stanford and life on his own there. we also had a discussion on what clams were in tagalog -- is it tulya or halaan? is halaan the dish or the shell? intelligent conversation, huh? hahaha!
after lunch, we all headed to coffee bean & tea leaf
it was a fun afternoon, and i wished we could have spent more time with mike. his flight leaves tonight, but already, i'm looking forward to seeing him at my wedding. because he is attending. right, mike? heehee!
on an even lighter note, i had such a pleasant surprise this afternoon when i got a text message from merl saying that we could already go for our first fittings by this saturday. WOW! that was quick!
good grief, things sure are starting to roll!
i have enough time...i have enough time...i have enough time...
